Letter for Mommy

I don’t wanna try you, I just need to get out of you
I know where my flesh from
I know where my blood from
And I know where I came from
But I don’t wanna end up, to be a dead man here
I wanna go somewhere else
I wanna find something that I never seen before..
It was me, my self……………….
I wanna meet her for the first time in my whole life
Cause you never let me to be me
Never!
You always decide what's a good things for me but you never ask whether it is good for me or not
You raise me like a puppy, feeding me, taking care of me
But I can not feel any love from all the money that you gave
CHEAP money that you always told to dad
Poor daddy broke his head down as loser.
He’s nothing compare to the mighty you..
What have you done to our home mommy?
I don’t’ think this is a family
Sometimes i feel nothing for you mom
Nothing..
Don’t shout at me, do not dictate me
I’ve grown up with this drama.
And I had enough playing this script.
Shame on me..
You never be our star, although you always act like you are..
You can’t fool anyone, although you always say that you’re the smartest one
You never be our model, never give any example of any good thought!
Hearing your abusing words in our ear is hurt enough
Watching your tricky liar things for us is dirt enough
I'm not a bad girl mom
So stop pointing your finger on my face !
Every good thing that i've done never made you proud enough
I know deep in side your heart, you do love me
So please, don’t make me hate you more
‘Cause I wanna love you mom..
But I tired of trying and understanding for so long..
'Cause nothing have change here!
You never let me speak, so i'll keep on silent forever
I do love you, I thank God I still have you..
But, i just wanna be my own self.
I'm afraid of sin of what i've said to you everyday in these long lasting conflicts
I lose my mind every time you scream and make those noise
I'm afraid of my self mom, 'cause now i become an evil for my self
And i dont wanna be haunted by this nightmare for the rest of my life!
Do not conquer me mom
'cause i just need to be loved..
So now let me go in peace
No more trap mom
You can not create my destiny
But you can pray for me
I’m oke without you, I’ll be just fine.
And now I’m waiting for my liberation..
I will give my life for freedom, freedom of mind that I never get before
Good bye sorrow
Good bye madness
Good bye mom..


Guys, watch out!
Don’t make your beloved child write this latter to you. Believe in God, so you can believe in your child. Because your child is not yours! Your child is an entrusted precious from God. Do cherish them. Do love them. Let them be what God want them to be, not what you want them to be. Teach them what love is, so they know how to love and be loved. They will love you, they will cherish you. Moreover, they will be able to love them self. Don’t break them down. They need model to learn. They need your role as a good parent. All you should do is praying for them. Let them be what God want them to be, 'cause God only has a good plan for His beloved child. Gbu.